Women

Simple and honestly, I love women. If you can not tell by now if you read my blog, you now know. By the way if you read this, thanks but seriously really. Just kidding.

My love for women can be easily traced back to my childhood, easy. So can my ambition, so can my loyalty to friendships. Point being, everything about my character can be traced back to my childhood.

So the real question is, why do I love women so much?

Answer

Look at the women up there. Stare at her, her eyes, her lips. The way she comforts you with her beauty. It is hard to love women.
But understand that love is a choice. It isn't a feeling. Attraction is a feeling. Love is a choice.

I love women because I choose to love something which inspires me.

In all honestly, women can be pains. They can tear you apart with one word and build you up with the next.

I use to fear that power they have. Now I shrug at it. Because to me, to be a true man one must surrender to that power i.e. accept it, not fear it, respect not hate it and dare I say enjoy like you enjoy ice cream on a hot summer day.

I now from the moment I knew women were different I wanted to be around them. Beautiful or not, skinny or fat. Whatever, every woman has her beauties. Its weird to admit that but when it comes to flirting, I have no standards. Its just a joy.

I use to think that would be the end of me. That I could never be faithful to one woman because of my love for women. Not true, I was willing to give up everything for one woman. To love her completely and near perfectly. To let her shape me into a true man, with her words of anger and words of love which at times sounded the same.

Maybe its cause I am young. Maybe when are get older women will love their beauty. Maybe I will one day become a sad husband who detests being home. Or maybe, I will always love women.

Love is a choice. And I choose to love all women. Just as I choose to give myself to one and only one woman, one day in the future.

Its that simple

The Sweet Sound

The sheer passion in the eyes of great men and women.
The sheer power that flows from their being. Power that they take no claim to, power that they don't understand. Power that they just are thankful for.

My heart have not seen beauty like hers in a long time. It was striking. So when I open my mouth to speak. It wasn't me speaking. No, no. That would just be too sad. This deserved much much more. And it received that.

Inside I smile. It felt so simple, such ease and simple flow. The choice to let go and be. The choice that emphasize beauty and love over mere appearance. It flooded my veins. Body moving in motion and flow that can't be denied.

I express the sheer power that flowed from the love I felt. The one I can't explain. The one that stands tall but yet invisible.

I am letting go of it all. I can't possibly hold on to mere appearance when such love and beauty knocks at my door. No more facade to prove anything. Love and beauty that I've felt from day one. The same love and beauty, I hid for mere appearance. The same that I went in search of because I thought I lost it. The same that I've always had. Love and Beauty. I am who I am. Something I will never fully comprehend but accept and love.

I am glad and awed that I have this love and beauty in me, ready for expression in everything I do.

Desire Back In Full Force

The most interesting thing that happened over the period of not blogging was I lost a huge sense of desire and hunger.

It was essentially a part of losing ego aka being on the path to enlightenment. In reality, it was just another way of building a second ego. Basically, it doesn't matter what I desire. As long as I don't put unnecessary value on them. In truth, I am tired of not wanting anything anymore. It is way too boring.

So I am going for it big time. The funny thing to me is despite trying to not desire things, amazing things still came. Now I wonder what will come my way when I actually put my mind to it. Only time will tell. All I know is I am going for it. The hunger is back. I lost 6 pounds in the last month. Not cool. Scary.

Either way, I am ready and able to go the distance. It is about time. I'm well rested. I see a lot, matured from the experience. See doubt, fear and worry invade my mind. Done amazing things with those there. I am ready to do great things.

I still desire greatness. I still desire to be on top. Who cares if I lose. I rather lose going for it, living life to the max, balls to the wall. Then just chilling. Best thing about the period of no desire, I learned to clear my mind of desire. It has hidden advantages.

No Ego, Just Heart.

Until next time
Marvel